There’s an old hymn we used to sing in the stoic church where I grew up. It was one of those songs on Sunday night’s when the music minister would do “open hymn” night and let the congregation choose our songs that would be at the top of the list. It had a happy beat ( although we did NOT dance to it). The pace of the song slowed at the end for dramatic effect before picking back up in speed. The words went something like this.
Count your blessings
Count them one by one
Count your blessings, see what God has done
Count your blessings.
Count them.
one.
by.
one.
Count your many blessings, see what God has done.

This past year has been an interesting journey for me, to say the least. I began my “rest” / ”creative sabbatical” about this time last year. I had no idea what would happen. I just knew I wasn’t going to be the one in control this time. You see, on this date TWO years ago today, I was sitting in Chicago across from a guy named Morty. Morty had invited my creative director and me to his packaging showroom to discuss a new product line of paper goods which would be part of the re-brand for the company which hired me to do a complete overhaul of it’s image. This new job for me was supposed to be all travel, all glamour. Except, here I was across from Morty. He had promised to provide lunch as part of our visit. He did. It was corned beef on white bread which he made himself in the company breakroom and he presented it to us on a styrofoam plate. My creative director and I were slightly stunned. We had envisioned a steak at Ruth Cris. I would’ve even taken the soup and salad at the Olive Garden at this point. he continued to amuse us. He asked if we wanted a pickle on the side. How nice he was providing options. And then Morty made us split (yes, split!) a kosher dill spear. My friend and I did everything in our power to not laugh. We created a new definition for being “morty-fied” The next day the trip continued much along this path. I often checked for hidden cameras in our rental car. I was convinced we were trapped in a Wes Anderson film. One thing for certain – this job was not glamorous, nor was it a good fit. I knew in the brief time I had been on staff, the job was sucking the life out of me. One breath at a time.
I returned home. My boss and I agreed to “mutually separate”. I suddenly found myself in a place I had never been since college – without a job. I panicked. The very next day, a good friend invited me to oversee development and marketing for a local non-profit. It seemed like a good fit on paper, at least the part of the paper I could see. It took nine months to figure out what was on the rest of that paper, So, it was a YEAR ago today, I sat in a board room revealing the brutal facts with a board of directors. Our cause was good. The economy was not. Our needs were high. Our donations were low. To be good stewards of what we had been gifted, I recommended we close the doors and donate our remaining funds to research. I was without a job – again. This time I did something different. I didn’t call a bunch of people to find the next gig. Part of me wanted to be angry, victimized, sad, bitter, for all the things the last two years had thrown my way which had not gone according to plan. Except…those emotions took too much energy. I was tired. Instead, I prayed. I really really really really prayed. In the way that only the Holy Spirit moves, I could hear God say in my heart, “be still”
In my stillness this past year, I’ve spent more time hanging out with God. I’ve studied the scripture more. I’ve prayed more. In June , I had the opportunity to learn how to take my new study habits and turn it into a talk to encourage others. In the class I was taking, I was assigned the passage of Matthew 5: 1-12 to present as my topic. Matthew 5:1-12 is the Beatitudes – that long list of paradoxical verses. Blesssed are the Poor. Blessed are the meek. Blessed are the hungry. Although I had read those verses a hundred times previously in my life, suddenly they dug into my heart and reflected every experience I had been through with my jobs, my volunteer commitments, and in my personal struggles the past two years. After I shared my talk with my classmates and the class was dismissed, my friend approached me to share it on a grander scale with the women in our church. This was God’s way of keeping me firmly planted in these verses from June until September. In addition to the talk I presented in September, I was asked to co-lead a bible study. The study was …. you guessed it – The Beatitudes. God clearly wanted me to learn this lesson. June through November he has had me firmly planted in this sermon he gave on a no name hill.
Today, - two years after meeting Morty, one year after that board meeting, and year of resting, I “get” these verses in a way I never have before understood them in my life. I know better what it means to be blessed. As I count my blessings this year, I am, of course, thankful for family, friends, shelter, food, air, flowers, shoes, dresses, music and laughter. More than these, I am thankful for the blessings of:
being at the end of my rope
losing what I thought was most dear to me
being content with just who I am
having a good appetite – for God
caring for others
getting my inside world (my heart and mind) right
for the opportunity to help others cooperate instead of compete
for having friends distance themselves from me or losing friendships altogether because of my faith
This Thanksgiving, I am seeing more clearly what God has done and is doing in my life. I’m counting these blessings one. by. one.
The Beatitudes ~ Matthew 1-12 (the message)
When Jesus saw his ministry drawing huge crowds, he climbed a hillside. Those who were apprenticed to him, the committed, climbed with him. Arriving at a quiet place, he sat down and taught his climbing companions. This is what he said:
3“You’re blessed when you’re at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and his rule.
4“You’re blessed when you feel you’ve lost what is most dear to you. Only then can you be embraced by the One most dear to you.
5“You’re blessed when you’re content with just who you are—no more, no less. That’s the moment you find yourselves proud owners of everything that can’t be bought.
6“You’re blessed when you’ve worked up a good appetite for God. He’s food and drink in the best meal you’ll ever eat.
7“You’re blessed when you care. At the moment of being ‘care-full,’ you find yourselves cared for.
8“You’re blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.
9“You’re blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That’s when you discover who you really are, and your place in God’s family.
10“You’re blessed when your commitment to God provokes persecution. The persecution drives you even deeper into God’s kingdom.
11-12“Not only that—count yourselves blessed every time people put you down or throw you out or speak lies about you to discredit me. What it means is that the truth is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable. You can be glad when that happens—give a cheer, even!—for though they don’t like it, I do! And all heaven applauds. And know that you are in good company. My prophets and witnesses have always gotten into this kind of trouble.
Happy Thanksgiving, Y’all. Grace to each of you.