Yesterday was a horrible, no good, rotten, terrible day. It stunk.

Part of my well-penned plans – a work part that excited me, thrilled me, got me going in the morning and had me dashing out the door to begin my daily tasks – was deleted from my to-do list in the blink of eye.
Someone changed their mind. Simple as that.
“It’s not personal. It’s business.”
Those lines ripped from the scenes of the classic movie The Godfather and used by Joe Fox to counsel Kathleen Kelly in You’ve Got Mail were echoing in my head as I felt the punch to my stomach and the air leave my body in a gasp.
I never saw it coming.

I was disillusioned. Disoriented. Then disappointed. Anger simmered below my surface. I did my best to keep my cool.
I didn’t cry. I wasn’t going to cry. Then I got home, and I cried.
Then, I prayed. I cried out to God the whiney spoiled-brat cry of “why?!”

With the patience of a re-directing parent reminding HIS child once again, God pointed me back to a most unexpected place…my last leadership blog post.
When I wrote that post about aligning personal goals and resolutions with God’s plan for us, I never anticipated I’d be back chewing on those words for myself this quickly into 2012.
Plans change. To-do lists get adjusted in the blink of eye. Were my action items and to-do’s in line with God’s plan for me? I thought they were.
Did yesterday’s blip change my personal daily mission or the God-given vision for where I feel I’m called? No, it didn’t.
I let that sink in a bit. Yesterday’s disappointment may have changed my to-do list for the coming weeks. But it didn’t change my ultimate future. Peace took hold. This hurt was momentary. I would be ok.

Keeping my eyes on the prize, aligning myself and anchoring myself to a higher calling beyond my 2012 means I woke up this morning with an understanding that God was simply reminding me… He’s got this.
Even if I can’t trust others to keep their word, I can trust HIS WORD. His plans are higher.
Do I want that to-do list back? No. Not now.
Today was filled with unexpected, unplanned blessings I never would’ve received without yesterday’s disappointment. The turn around time on this life lesson is amazing.

God has astonished me. Truly, that was my ultimate goal for this year. Right? Didn’t I write that I wanted to let God astonish me? Guess what, he has.
I pray you have the joy of allowing him to astonish you, too.
I can’t wait to see what the next 11 months have in store.
gracefully yours,
boots,
xxoo
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